10. Aika Natsukawa is…
In just a moment, I stared at Aizawa from the side. Her eyelashes were super long
Eh? Was she always this cute? I can’t stop myself from looking at her.
My heart was beating so fast, but by squeezing my own cheeks, I could regain my composure.
Yeah, this is a crucial moment.
“Aizawa… You see, before I met Natsukawa, I was rejected by another girl.”
“Eh, Sajou-kun was rejected?”
“Yes, it’s the story from when I was still in Junior High School”
I’m a fan of an idol named Aika Natsukawa. It’s no exaggeration to say that my favor to her transcends love, and it can’t be called just a mere ‘love’ anymore. No one should ever hold a grudge against someone like Aika Natsukawa.
“Yeah, that girl rejected me in a very terrible way. It was something like, “You’re a disgusting guy.” or “How could you say such a thing?”, Anyway, it was in a way that denied my existence. Well, if I think I about it now, it might not entirely wrong.”
“That, that kind of thing is…”
“Anyway, after that, when I walked down the corridor, a woman who rejected me appeared in front of me with her boyfriend. And her boyfriend said, “How dare you did something unpleasant to my girlfriend.”, something like that.”
“I was beaten and blown away. At that time, Aika Natsukawa was walking behind me, and my face thrust into her chest.”
“Then, Natsukawa screamed and got angry, and made me eat a whole slap from her hand.”
“And, I fell in love.”
Aika Natsukawa was standing where I was blown away. She was surprised and told us to tell her the whole story, And, that girl’s boyfriend exclaimed, “he has done something wrong!”, while pointing at me.
But, Natsukawa was angry at that boyfriend, and also at the girl who rejected me. “What you did is, trampling on the dignity of other people. It’s the worst thing to do!”, was what Natsukawa shouted at them.
Many students agreed with her remarks that were full of anger. Anyway, thanks to that, I was saved, and wanted to know more about Natsukawa, so I started chasing her.
……All of it was just a hoax, a big scam, that I told to Aizawa.
“…..Aika Natsukawa isn’t just cute, She’s also a good girl. I’m confident that I can do anything if it’s for her. Though, even if I don’t do anything, Natsukawa seems to be able to do something about herself.”
“… Is that so? I see.”
To my words, Aizawa raised her leg that had been outstretched to the ground and held her knee on the bench. I didn’t want Aizawa to think badly about Natsukawa. That was why I make Natsukawa a “Woman who understands the feelings of someone who broken heart”.
…. Anyway, I’m sure Natsukawa actually understands that feeling! Because it’s that Natsukawa, we’re talking about!
“That’s why I became a die-hard fan of Natsukawa.”
I had to tell Aizawa this. That, I wasn’t Natsukawa’s boyfriend and I couldn’t be that. I wasn’t an entertainer who made people laugh by showing my desperate attempt at trying to get someone out of my reach, and I wasn’t going to keep the role of making the class feel more alive either. I had to tell her that I was just an ordinary creature. A human who made a lot of mistakes.
“… Eh? What do you mean by fans?”
“Aika Natsukawa is everyone’s idol, I’m confident to say that I’m her number one fan.”
“Wait a minute! Aren’t you dating Natsukawa-san?”
“The only one I’ll give my approval to go out with Natsukawa, is only a handsome guy!”
“No, that’s not what I mean!”
Come on, Rena Aizawa! Don’t be so confused! It’s a punishment for trying to harm my idol, Aika Natsukawa! You should know your misunderstanding. Blush your face! Ooooh! Sooo cute!!!
“Everyone knows that, but I guess, in the case of Aizawa, who could only see her boyfriend, perhaps didn’t know that?”
“…Eh? Maybe, that’s true.”
“Natsukawa is a good girl. I’m confident to say that I will always continue to support Natsukawa even if I have a girlfriend that’s not her.”
“Eh! Eeeeeh!? From a girl’s perspective, that feeling is too complicated……”
“You see, all men are like that. And, even some girls who have a boyfriend, they’re still absorbed in handsome idols, right?”
“Ugh… if you put it that way…”
If Arimura-senpai is really the worst man, he shouldn’t be convinced easily when Aizawa wanted to break up with him, and would keep trying to maintain the relationship with Aizawa. Even a man would care about his own status when seeing a girl, and think whether that girl is suitable for him or not, and above all, Aizawa is just so cute. Just because he really fell in love with Aika Natsukawa, he will not care about other women anymore, it’s just not a nature of a man to do that. You see, we are all greedy creatures.
You know, your look is just the most outer part of your inner heart. So, even though Arimura-senpai isn’t particularly trying to have a new hairstyle or dressing up to look better, he has a cool vibe and personality of a “reliable senpai”. At that time, when he was asked about his favorite girl and answered “Natsukawa”, I think he’s not planning to seriously make her be his girlfriend for the time being. I think that he answered with a feeling like ‘I’m a fan of her’. However, that feeling turned into a feeling of guilt to Aizawa. If so, everything can be settled up fast.
“Oh, the time for lunch break has almost ended.”
“You couldn’t eat your lunch. Sorry…..”
“Don’t worry. And, I’ll scold Ashida again later.”
“No, don’t… Maybe, Ashida-san just protected Natsukawa-san, and I don’t think she has a bad intention to me.”
“Eh? That Ashida? Protected her?”
I thought Ashida said such words only with hostility and malice. You see, Ashida knows I’m not dating Natsukawa, and she knows that Natsukawa hates me. She must know that Natsukawa won’t get hurt even if Aizawa robbed me. Really, I don’t really understand what you mean, I wonder if there are things that only girls can understand.
“Well, whatever. Anyway, if you expect too much from a man, it will only hurt you.”
“You don’t need to say一 unnecessary words like that. Sajou-kun too.”
“Don’t worry, I’m okay.”
I don’t hope or expect anything from her, and I don’t plan to be so serious to get her. If I can build a good relationship with her, it’s more than enough. Thanks to that, I feel that my life has been extended by about 5 years recently. It’s surprisingly comfortable to understand that and just let yourself be deceived.
The back view of Aizawa leaving was completely rejuvenated. Looking at Aizawa now, I think that her way of speaking words fluffily was her true self. It was really scary to try to blind others just by using her charm. Though, I was blinded by it.
That pavilion was originally a place of memories of Aizawa and Arimura-senpai. I shouldn’t get closer to it too often anymore.
Well, I don’t think I’ll come here by myself unless someone invites me.
If I hadn’t chased Natsukawa. For sure Aizawa wouldn’t even try to get close to me, and maybe I shouldn’t have had such trouble at all. But, just the fact that I could get to know a cute girl was just bliss for me, it was to the level of fluttering with a soft blanket in bed. What I realized from this event was, in terms of avoiding troubles, it was important to know yourself better.
And if I did that from the beginning. I might not need to feel a little lonely like this.
Oi, oi, I guess I was kind of expecting something.
Author’s Note : In conclusion, men was equally stupid in love.