4. Average person’ Declaration
“I like you. Please go out with me.”
I told Aika my feelings with a very cool face that I could make (Intention). When it came to confession for the first time, usually it was always that word, something similar. So, my words might sound like just common words in Aika’s ear.
While carefully observing the beautiful girl in front of me, I ate the onion soup. I was so nervous that it didn’t have any taste in my mouth. It didn’t moisten my lips at all.
… I’m sorry Mom, I used 2 packages of your favorite instant soup powder.
“Ha, Hah!? What are you talking about! I can’t go out with you!”
Yeah, I knew it. As expected,
“Hey… since when did we start calling each other by name?”
“What the hell, why you suddenly speak so fast….. Calling by name? I’m sure since we graduated from middle school───Ah, don’t call me by name so casually! Everyone will misunderstand it you know!”
That’s right. It’s annoying from Aika’s perspective. Even though, mistaken as the boyfriend is good.
“…….Right, that’s right.”
But, this is the reality. What I have always turned away from. I’ve been always in a dream world, I kept dreaming since I was in junior high school. From that dream, I couldn’t wake up until I heard the sound of a soccer ball hitting a wall. And the mirror, you’re too cruel.
“Well, it’s my fault, Natsukawa”
“It’s too late n───eh?”
Aika, no, Natsukawa was blankly looking at me who just called her by her last name so suddenly. Of course, she was surprised by it. She did ask me to stop it so many times, but only now have I listened to what she said.
Natsukawa just stood on the spot without moving while pointing at me. Such a posture was so strange that it made me smile. Perhaps, it would be better to say that I was grinning?
Even if I start to see the “reality”, my love for Natsukawa won’t change. Even if I feel that she is an out-of-reach idol, I will proudly see her from far away. And just because I start to see the reality, I won’t deny all of these feelings
That’s why, this greedy feeling that I have is unacceptable.
“Even if you hit me, I never listened to you, in fact, it even makes me miss you more. If you think it normally, I’m like a crazy guy, right?”
“Eh, eeeee… Su-suddenly, what are you talking about…”
“Of course, tha───”
As I tried to continue my words, I heard a lazy voice and the living room door was opened vigorously. It was my sister who was an examinee for university this year who just came back home like some delinquent. She threw her bag and took off her cardigan.
“Welcome back, Sis. But, don’t surprise me like that, please take it easy.”
“Huft, I’m seriously ti-red. Wataru get me something to drink… hm?”
My sister, Kaede, jumped onto the sofa as soon as she came back. I couldn’t hide my sigh in the ruggedness that didn’t fit the name. [TN: Kaede (Maple leaf) in Japan, symbolizes elegance, beauty, and grace, That’s why the MC said his sister’s behavior doesn’t suit the name.]
Perhaps, one of the reasons I fall in love with Natsukawa is that I grew up seeing such an older sister. As expected, modesty is important.
When I was thinking about such a thing, it seemed my sister discovered the existence of Natsukawa
“Wow, Wataru is bringing in a girl back home!?”
Couldn’t she say it in better words? And her voice, so loud. I think it could be heard by our neighbors. Please, don’t spread the misunderstandings even more…
A few seconds later, my mom who picked up my sister at the cram school heard her voice and came here so fast. When she saw Natsukawa and me sitting across the dining table, she hung her head down and sigh.
Don’t say that mom thought that I and Natsukawa had done something because of my sister’s words…
“Don’t say something that could easily be misunderstood, stupid!”
“It hurts!? B-But…!”
Oh, ooooh. It’s been a long time since I saw mom angry. Certainly, her shout was unusually loud.
After my mom hit my sister’s head, she corrected her messed-up fleece and began to make a smile.
“Good evening. Are you Wataru’s friend?”
“That’s not the normal way to talk to a high school student, isn’t it?”
“Could you Shut Up for a moment!?”
Today, my mom was unusually emotional. Both, my mom and sister corrected their posture and saw Natsukawa, staring from top to bottom. This sister and mother of me, and even me too? We might look like a really rude family.
Stop it! Your eyes are like someone searching for what to buy, you know! Could you stop it, please?!
“Still, She’s super cute! Don’t say, she’s your girlfriend!?”
“Of course, that’s not the case, oh my stupid daughter! Look at them! Somehow… they don’t look like ‘that’, right!?”
See at Aika Illustration
“Right! No matter what, she’s too good for Wataru!”
It’s good that their judgment is correct, so I could explain it faster, but Really, both of them just keep talking whatever they want. Are these two really my family members? It’s not like I’m a relative’s son and they hide that fact from me, right? No, now that I think about it, they are always like that. And I’m not angry about it at all. Seriously my mind is like steel.
Well, I’m sure she knows what I want to say.
“───So, Natsukawa. It seems I didn’t notice such a simple thing until now. Even though I should be able to understand immediately after thinking about it a little.”
“The more you say it, the more I realize it. If you dislike it so much, I won’t get closer to you anymore. Human relationships are usually like that, right?”
I’m sure, somewhere in me always feel off about all of this. Sure, I like Aika Natsukawa. However, I can’t imagine myself and her dating. Why?
No matter how much I try to imagine, it doesn’t seem like we are in balance. With how much our gap in appearances… I can’t keep humiliating myself by imagining a cruel scene.
At least now, I think that there is a natural disparity in the world like the face and the nerve of someone since they were born. That’s why, now I’m finally aware of my own appeal───I finally woke up from a long dream, and was able to face back the reality that I had left behind.
“That’s why I’m going to try to do what’s ‘natural’ to do, and try read the situation and the mood. I’ll try to calm down my usual self, so please take care of me from now on too.”
“T-Take care of me, huh?….. Y-You…..”
That said, some mob characters are in their youth too. Even if they are not beautiful girls like the heroine of a drama, like Natsukawa. But I should be able to enjoy my school life as long as I can get someone who’s on the same level as me.
So, there’s one thing I can do now, that’s to ask Natsukawa, who is about 50… no, 60, I need her help.
“─── So, Natsukawa, isn’t there one girl among your friend who suits me?”
Natsukawa shook her shoulders. No matter how I looked at it, it looked like she was angry. I was just a normal citizen, so, I didn’t dare to move when being glared at by a beautiful girl. Anyway, I thought her gaze would be colder than this, but…
“…..You’re The Lowest!!!”
I thought she would hit me, so I hurriedly prepare myself for it. However, Natsukawa didn’t do so. She stretched herself from the dining table with both hands, and she quickly headed toward the entrance. I tried to chase after her in a hurry, but her steps were so quick.
“O, Oi Natsukawa!”
“So annoying! Idiot!”
Even though I finally reached her, Natsukawa shook my hand and went ahead as usual. The last thing I saw was her figure turning around the corner and running away with all her might.