4. Average person’ Declaration
“I like you. Please go out with me.”
I told Aika my feelings with a very cool face that I can make, or so I planned to do it that way. You see, when it came to confession for the first time, it’s usually always using that words. So, my words might sound like just a common words in Aika’ ear.
While watching the beautiful girl in front of me, I ate the onion soup. I’m so nervous that it doesn’t have any taste and it doesn’t moisten my lips at all… I’m sorry Mom, I used 2 packages of your favorite instant soup powder.
“Huh!? What are you talking about! I can’t go out with you!”
Yeah, I knew it. As expected.
“Right… Oh, by the way, since when did we start calling by name?”
“What the hell, you suddenly speak so fast….. Calling by name? I’m sure since we graduated from middle school…. Anyway, don’t call me by name so casually! Everyone misunderstands it you know!”
That’s right. It’s annoying from Aika’ perspective. Even though mistaken as the boyfriend is also good.
“…….Right, that’s right.”
But, this is the reality. What I have always turned away from. I’ve been always dreaming since I was in junior high school. From that dream, I couldn’t wake up until I heard the sound of a soccer ball hitting a wall. And the mirror, you’re too cruel.
“Well, it was my bad, Natsukawa”
“It’s too late now…. Huh?”
Aika is blankly seeing me who call her by her last name so suddenly. Well, Natsukawa. Of course she was surprised by it. She did ask me to stop it so many times, but only now I listen to what she said.
Natsukawa just stood on the spot without moving while pointing at me. Such a posture was so strange that it made me smile. Wait, weren’t it better to say that I was grinning?
Even when I look myself at the mirror of this reality, my love for Natsukawa does not change. I’m proud to see her as an out my reach idol. I don’t want to deny all of this feeling just because I realize the reality now.
That is why, this greedy feeling that I have is unacceptable.
“Even if you hit me, I never listened to you, and it even make me miss you more. If you think it normally, I’m like a crazy guy right?”
“Eh, Hmm… Su-suddenly, what are you talking about…”
“Of course, that’s….”
As I tried to continue my words, the living room door opened vigorously with a lazy voice. It was my sister who was an examinee for university this year who just came back home like some delinquent. She throw her bag and take off her cardigan.
“Welcome back, Sis. But, don’t surprised me like that, please take it easy.”
“Huft, I’m seriously tired. Wataru get me something to drink… hm?”
My sister, Kaede, jumps into the sofa as soon as she comes back. I can’t hide my sigh in the ruggedness that doesn’t fit the name. I think one of the reasons I fell in love with Natsukawa was that I grew up seeing such an older sister. You see, modesty is important.
[TN: Kaede (Maple leaf) in Japan, symbolize elegant, beauty and grace, That’s why the MC said his sister behavior doesn’t suit with the name.]
When I was thinking about such a thing, it seems that my sister discovered the existence of Natsukawa
“Wow, Wataru is bringing in a girl back home!?”
Couldn’t she said it in a better words? And her voice, so loud. I think it could have been heard by our neighbors. Please, don’t spread the misunderstandings even more…
A few seconds later, my mom who picked up my sister at the cram school heard her voice and flew here so fast. When she saw Natsukawa and me sitting across the dining table, she hang her head down and sigh.
Don’t say that my mom would think that me and Natsukawa had done something because of my sister words…
“Don’t say something that could easily be misunderstood, stupid!”
“It hurts!? B,But…!”
Oh, oh. It’s been a long time since I saw my mon angry. Certainly, my sister’s shout was unusual.
After my mon hit my sister’s head, she corrected her messed up fleece and began to make a smile.
“Good evening. Are you Wataru’s friend?”
“That’s not the normal way to talk to a high school students, isn’t it?”
“Could you Shut Up for a moment!?”
Today, my mom is unusually emotional. Both, my mon and sister correct their posture and see Natsukawa, staring her from top to bottom. This sister and mother of me, and even me too? It’s a really rude family. Really, their eyes is like someone picking what to buy! Could they stop it, please?
“Still, She’s super cute! Don’t say she’s your girlfriend!?”
“That’s not the case, oh my stupid daughter! Look at them! Somehow… they don’t look like that, right!?”
“Right! No matter what, she’s too good for Wataru!”
It’s good that their judgement is correct, so I could explain it faster, but Really, both of them just keep talking whatever they want. Are these two really my family members? It’s not like I’m a relative’s son and they hide that fact from me, right? No, when I think about it, they were always like that. And I’m not angry about it at all. Seriously I’ve a mental like steel.
Well, I’m sure she know what I mean now.
“…It seems like that, Natsukawa. I hadn’t noticed such a simple thing until now. Even though I can understand immediately after thinking about it a little.”
“The more you say it, the more I’ll realized it. If you dislike it so much, I won’t get closer to you anymore. Human relationships are usually like that, right?”
I’m sure I’ve always felt off somewhere. I like Aika Natsukawa. However, I can’t imagine myself and her dating. Why?
No matter how much I try to imagine, it doesn’t seem like we are in balance. With how much our gap in appearances, I can’t keep humiliate myself by imagining a cruel scene.
At least now, I think that there is a natural disparity in the world like the face and the nerve of someone since they was born. That’s why, now I was able to realize my own appeal……. I woke up from a long dream, and I was able to face back the reality that I had left behind.
“That’s why I’m going to try to do what’s ‘natural’ to do, and try read the situation and the mood. And with this, I’ll be able to calm down my usual action, so please take care of me from now on too.”
“Take care of me, huh?….. Yo-You…..”
That said, there are some mob characters who are in their youth too, even if they are not beautiful girls like the heroine of a drama, like Natsukawa. But I should be able to enjoy my school life as long as I can get someone who’s on the same level as me.
There’s one thing I can do now, that’s to ask Natsukawa, who is 50.. no 60 times a lot better than me, I need her help.
“……So, isn’t there one girl among Natsukawa’s friend who suits me?”
Natsukawa shakes her shoulders. No matter how I look at it, it looks like she’s angry. I’m just a normal citizen who was glared at by a beautiful girl, and I don’t have the courage to move in this situation. Anyway, I thought her gaze would be colder than this, but…
“…..You’re The lowest!!!”
I thought she would hit me, so I hurriedly prepare myself for it. However, Natsukawa did not do so. She stretched from the dining table with both hands, and she quickly headed toward the entrance. I tried to chase after her in a hurry, but her steps were so quick.
“O, Oi Natsukawa!”
“So annoying, Idiot!”
Even though I finally reached her, Natsukawa shook my hand and went ahead as usual. The last thing I saw was her figure turning around the corner and running away with all her might.