2. Bad condition
The first class was over without any incident. I can understand the meaning of learning Japanese in modern writing, but I don’t feel the meaning of learning the words of ancient Japanese and Chinese. I wonder why I need to study it when I’ll never use the words, that have already been lost, in my daily life. If they want to teach the moral lessons that could be learn from old Chinese or Japanese short stories, am I the only one who wants the teacher to teach us after translating it into modern sentences from the very beginning?
You see, I didn’t have any break since the morning.
While thinking that, Aika was walking in front of me as I tried to go out into the corridor to get some fresh air. And, my eyes meet her who suddenly make a surprised face.
“Hey! Don’t follow me!”
“Ah, no, I just want to go to the bathroom.”
Aika stiffen on the spot. And I can feel an awkward atmosphere. She might have realized that she had just misunderstood me, because her face turned red, and she regretfully glared at me and yelled at me.
“Say it first then!”
My behavior right now may be a bit different from the usual, but still, if a man suddenly declares “I’m going to the bathroom” to a woman…. won’t she get troubled about how to react, right?
While imagining it in my mind, I pass by Aika who doesn’t move from there. And, when I reached the entrance of the toilet, I was dragged in by Yamazaki and several others from the same class.
“….What happened to you?”
“You guys, huh… are you talking about me and Aika?”
“Yeah, I wonder if you had a fight.”
Yamazaki asks while grinning. His eye look like he find something that looks interesting… Rather, I’m the one who like to ask.
“Fighting as usual, isn’t it?”
“Hmm, yeah… That’s right, you could say it like that.”
He was convinced when I answered calmly. But the other one doesn’t seem to be convinced yet. When he approached me as if to re-check again, he look into me with a look of an explorer…… Hey, don’t be so exited! Your breathing is so rough right now!
“Wait, isn’t Natsukawa always angry at you? And aren’t you always trying to get involved with Natsukawa without paying attention to what she said?”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
“Oi, give me some explanation, you…..”
That’s right. Even when I saw Aika’s disgusting reaction, I never think, “Let’s give up.” or something like that. Even if she got angry, I was probably happy that she direct her emotions straight to me. That much is how much I like Aika….Hmm?…Like?
“Hey, do I look like someone who like Aika?”
“Huh? What are you talking about? Don’t you deeply in love with her?”
“Right, I like her. Aaa, I want to spread this feeling.”
“Oi, oi, at this timing? You want to curse… I mean spread it!?? “
As my friend says, I like Aika Natsukawa. Her dignified behavior too, her strong-willed personalities too, and her side that sometime like to be a busybody too. That’s why I’ve been desperately appealing to her to turn around to me.
But what is this feeling? I’m sure I like her, but I don’t want to rush to her side right now. It’s different from before. Sure, I want to be by her side, but I feel that the burning feelings in my heart are gone.
Wait, that means my feelings to Aika disappeared, right? If so, then, what is this feeling…?
“I don’t think they had a fight.”
“Right. It seems so.”
“Yeah, even myself think so too.”
“What are you saying, huh?”
The conversation finished in a strange atmosphere. Oh, the break time is about to end. So, We were in a hurry to went back to the classroom.
At that time, when I saw that strange things coming out from Aika, it left a deep impression to me…… More, let me see it more, come on.
It’s Noon now. It’s been 10 hours since I experience this. Actually, the sound from my stomach doesn’t stop since the 4th period. Right now, my stomach is always ready for digesting any food. I decided, so let’s ask Aika… Aika?
What I need to ask to Aika…? My lunch box is hung inside the plastic next to the desk so that it can be taken out immediately. I don’t need to ask anything to Aika, right? Hmm, What I always do at noon?
『 “… Aika! Let’s eat together!” 』
Yes, I used to invite Aika for lunch. When I looked to the left, my eyes happened to meet Aika’ eyes. She looked at me with a tense face……. Should I invite her as usual?
While I still lost on my thoughts, I decided to ask her, but for some reason my voice didn’t come out. Moreover, I don’t know why, but I feel embarrassed and my head is spinning.
“Wh, What?… if you have something to say, say it.”
“Ah, no… I, I mean…”
Hmmm, why the atmosphere become so awkward? Didn’t I usually just go straight sticking my desk to her desk, then eating while looking at Aika’ face like someone who is in lovestruck? Shit, am I too embarrassed to do that now? Doesn’t that mean the usual me is seriously disgusting…?
Seriously, something is wrong with me today. In the first place, I feel that all the scenery I see is different from usual. I’m honestly in panic right now, maybe it’s not because of Aika… Just that, it’s the first time I feel like this.
….Anyway, let’s get away from here now! Perhaps, she may find me to be strange after this.
I guess, I better not go to a place with a lot of people. For the time being, let’s go somewhere where there’s no one.
“Huh…!? Wa, wait!?”
Anyway, I bring my lunch box with me. since drinks can be bought at the vending machine on the way later. I felt like Aika said something to me, but I don’t care about it for now. Even though usually I’m the one who always care so much about her. Really, what am I talking about, huh? It’s just so stupid….
The inside of my head is still swirling. But my vision became clear already. While still being confused about what just happened, I bought green tea and cola. Now, I was gripping the cola in my hand. No, at this point, anything is fine.
When I was walking around searching some a place to rest, I found a bench in the middle of the walkway with a roof that surround the courtyard. It seems that no one is using it, so why don’t I use it for the time being?
I sit down, stay like that, and wait for about 30 seconds. After I recover my mind, I open my lunch on my lap. I’m hungry. The omelet, which looks like something that can be found in every one’ lunch box, I take it with chopsticks and carried to my mouth.
“… It’s good.”
A superb dish that permeates the sweetness in my mouth. I think if you buy it on convenience store, it’s about 210 Yen for 5 pieces. Still, The taste is so gentle that it could purify your heart….. Is this what they called the taste of mom’s cook?
As I continued to eat, my head was refreshed as if I was pulled back by the view. Just a moment ago, my mind feels like a broken TV screen, but now I don’t feel anything in particular…. I wonder if I just simply lacked of nutrition?
“It was dangerous.”
Finally, my mind was back to normal. I think it’s better if I went to the infirmary first before I ate my meal. I wonder if my mind that’s going insane just blunted my decent judgment… But well, if in the end it healed, so it’s okay, right? Rather it’s good that it didn’t became a big problem.
Fifth period… my next class is about modern literacy. Yes, it’s time to let my brain rest. If you read online novels or something, you don’t really need to learn this kind of thing in class. I don’t want to use extra energy right now, so maybe I should just spacing off in the class for the next period…
When I returned to the classroom thinking about such things, Aika who’s sitting next to me might have noticed the sound of me pulling a chair, and turned her body over here. Look at my chest and then look at me….. Did she just see my nameplate? Anyway, why it looks like she just unlocked a double-security lock.
“Just maybe… Did you worried about me?”
“Huh!? Why do I have to worry about you!?”
“Well, that’s true.”
I had no choice but to nod to her angry way of denial. Anyway, I never think that I will get hurt with just this much, but … Somehow, it makes me want to cry. At the very least, I keep quiet until Aika’s mood returns……. Aika, let me massage your shoulders….. No, calm down, calm down. Don’t lose to your own desire.
“Well, that’s true, huh? You, you…”
Okay. Just now is good. If it just make her cursing me… it’s just like a reward for me!
But, usually She always refuse clearly, so it’s unusual for Aika to mumble to me…. No, Please, don’t do that.
Then, Aika didn’t exchange any words with me…. But, it may have saved me, because I need to use my head quite a bit just by talking to others, not just Aika. Anyway, after I keep spacing off for a while, it seems that I’m able to get back on my sense.