2. Bad condition
The first class was over without any incident.
I can understand the meaning of learning modern Japanese, but I can’t understand the meaning of learning the words of Old Japanese or Sino-Japanese. I wonder why I need to study it when I’ll never use the words, that has already been lost, in my daily life. If they want to teach the moral lessons that could be learn from old Chinese or old Japanese short stories, am I the only one who wants the teacher to teach us after translating it into modern Japanese from the very beginning? [TN: Sino-Japanese is a portion of the Japanese vocabulary that is of Chinese origin ]
I didn’t have any break since the morning, you know?
While thinking that, I went outside to the corridors as I wanted to go to the bathroom, but Aika was walking one step ahead in front of me.
Then, right when my eyes met hers, she suddenly made a surprised face.
“Hey! Don’t follow me!”
“Ah, no, I just want to go to the bathroom.”
Aika stiffened on the spot.
And I could feel an awkward atmosphere. Perhaps she realized that she had just misunderstood me, her face turned red.
But then, she regretfully glared at me and yelled at me.
“Say it first then!”
My behavior right now may be a bit different from the usual, but still, if a man suddenly declares “I’m going to the bathroom” to a woman…. she’ll be troubled about how to react, right?
While imagining it in my mind, I passed Aika who didn’t move from the spot.
And, when I reached the entrance of the toilet, I was dragged in by Yamazaki and several others from the same class.
“….What happened to you?”
“You guys, huh… are you talking about me and Aika?”
“Yeah, I wonder if you had a fight.”
Yamazaki asked while grinning. His eye looked like someone who had found something interesting.
…Well, I want to know more about it too.
“Fighting as usual, huh?”
“Hmm, yeah… That’s right, you could say it like that.”
He was convinced when I calmly answered so. But the other one didn’t seem to be convinced yet. That guy approached me as if he wanted to investigate further. He looked over me with a look of an explorer.
….. Hey, don’t get so exited! Your breathing is so rough right now!
“Wait, isn’t Natsukawa always angry at you? And aren’t you always trying to get involved with Natsukawa without paying attention to what she said?”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
“Yeah, that’s right? Huh? You…..”
Now that you mention it, that’s right. Even when I saw Aika’s disgusting reaction, I never thought, “Let’s give up.” or something like that. Even if she got angry, I was probably happy that she directed her emotions to me straightforwardly. That much is how much I like Aika….Hmm?…Like?
“Hey, do I look like someone who like Aika?”
“Huh? What are you talking about? Aren’t you deeply in love with her?”
“Right, I like her. Aaah, I want to spread this feelings.”
“Oi, oi, at this timing? You want to curse… I mean spread it!?? “
As what he says, I like Aika Natsukawa. Her dignified behavior, her strong-willed personalities, and even that side of her where she sometime acts like a busybody. That’s why I’ve been desperately appealing to her to turn around to me.
But what is this feeling? I’m sure I like her, but I don’t want to rush to her side right now. It’s different from before. Sure, I want to be by her side, but I feel like the burning sensation in my heart has gone.
Wait, that means, my feelings to Aika has disappeared, right? If so, then, what is this feeling…?
“I don’t think they had a fight.”
“Right. It seems so.”
“Yeah, even myself think so too.”
“You, what the hell are you saying?”
The conversation finished in a strange atmosphere.
…Oh, the break time is about to end.
Then, in a hurry, we went back to the classroom.
At that time, the strange things that was coming out from Aika, it left a deep impression to me.
….. More, let me see it more, come on.
It was Noon.
…It’s been 10 hours since I experience this. The sound from my stomach hasn’t stop since the 4th period. Right now, my stomach is more than ready for digesting any food. I decided. Let’s ask Aika… Aika?
Ask Aika for what…? My lunch box is hung inside the plastic next to the desk so that it can be taken out immediately. I don’t need to ask anything to Aika, right? Hmm, What I always do at noon?
『 “… Aika! Let’s eat together!” 』
I used to invite Aika for lunch.
When I looked to the left, my eyes happened to meet Aika’ eyes. She looked at me with a tense face.
…… Should I invite her as usual?
After hesitating for a while, I decided to ask her, but for some reason my voice wouldn’t come out. Moreover, I didn’t know why, but I felt embarrassed and my mind started spinning.
“W-What?… if you have something to say, say it.”
“Ah, no… I… what to say…”
Hmmm, why the atmosphere become so awkward? Didn’t I usually just go straight sticking my desk to her desk, then eating while looking at Aika’ face like someone who is in lovestruck? Shit, am I too embarrassed to do that now? No, more than that, isn’t the usual me seriously disgusting…?
Seriously, something is wrong with me today. In the first place, I somehow feel that all the scenery I see is different from usual. I’m honestly in a panic right now, maybe it’s not because of Aika…? I’ve never been like this before.
….Anyway, let’s get away from here now!
Perhaps, anyone would find me strange… I guess, I better not go to a place with a lot of people. For the time being, let’s go somewhere where there’s no one.
“Huh…!? Wa, wait!?”
Anyway, I’ve my lunch box with me. As for the drinks? I can buy it at the vending machine on the way later. I feel like Aika said something to me, but it’s not the time ro care about that. Even though usually I’m the one who always care so much about her. Really, what am I talking about, huh? It’s just so stupid….
The inside of my head was still swirling. But my vision had already become clear. While still being confused about what had just happened, I bought green tea and cola. Now, I was gripping the cola in my hand.
Well, at this point, anything is fine.
When I was walking around searching some a place to rest, I found a bench in the middle of the walkway with a roof, surrounding the courtyard.
It seems that no one is using it, so why don’t I use it for the time being?
I sat down, stayed like that, and waited for about 30 seconds. After I recovered my mind, I opened my lunch on my lap.
Aah, I’m hungry.
The omelet, which looked like something that could be found in every one’ lunch box, I took it with chopsticks and carried to my mouth.
“… It’s good.”
The sweetness of the superb dish was permeating in my mouth.
I think if you buy it on convenience store, it’s about 210 Yen for 5 pieces. Still, The taste is so gentle that it could purify your heart….. Is this what they called the taste of mom’s cook? [TN: about 2$]
As I continued to eat, my head was refreshed.
Just a moment ago, my mind feels like a broken TV screen, but now I don’t feel anything in particular…. I wonder if I just simply lacked of nutrition?
“It was dangerous.”
Finally, my mind was back to normal.
I think it’s better if I went to the infirmary first before I ate my meal. I wonder if my mind that went insane just blunted my decent judgment… But well, in the end it healed, so it’s okay, right? Rather it’s good that it didn’t became a big problem.
Fifth period… my next class is about modern literacy. Yes, it’s time to let my brain rest. If you like to read online novels or something like that, you don’t really need to learn this kind of thing in class. I don’t want to use extra energy right now, so maybe I should just spacing off in the class for a whole period…?
When I returned to the classroom thinking about such things, Aika who was sitting next to me might have noticed the sound of me pulling a chair, she turned her body over here. Looked at my chest and then looked at me.
…. Did she just see my nameplate? Anyway, why it looks like she just unlocked a double-security lock.
“Just maybe… Were you worried about me?”
“H-Huh!? Why do I have to worry about you!?”
I had no choice but to nod to her angry way of denial.
Anyway, I’ve never thought that I will get hurt with just this much… Somehow, it makes me want to cry. At the very least, I’ll keep quiet until Aika’s mood returns.
…….Aika, let me massage your shoulders….. No, calm down, calm down. Don’t lose to your own desire.
“I see? You, you…”
Okay. Just now is good. If it’s just her swearing… it’s like a reward for me!
But, it’s unusual for Aika to falter, usually she always refused clearly…. No, it’s not like I want it. Please, don’t do that if you can.
Then, Aika didn’t exchange more words with me…. But, it might have saved me, because I needed to use my head quite a bit just by talking to others, not just Aika. Anyway, after I kept spacing off for a while, it seemed that I was able to regain myself.